Urgent email from clinic...

Please note that i have done a day 5 scan of your donor today and unfortunately she has not given a very good response ( that is, not formed a good number of eggs). We have therefore decided to cancel her cycle for you.

Although this news was devastating, it wasn't the end of our road. We will change donors, change our travel dates for a month or two and continuing praying. I completed my hysteroscopy yesterday, results were NORMAL. All of our tests are complete, just awaiting new donor profiles and travel arrangements.

Today, my youngest son celebrated his 6th birthday and I couldn't let him down by thinking of myself. He had an outstanding birthday.

My prayers go out to each and every IP and those going through IVF.

WE'RE MORE THAN CONQUERORS!!!

Blessing in disguise...

I would like to apologize first for not blogging in awhile, although I have managed to keep up with other bloggers. Although, I haven't post in awhile I have continued all blood-work, fun in a cup for C. and ensuring money will be readily available for our upcoming trip. Unfortunately, my job has informed me that I am unable to travel to India until Nov. 2009 and beyond. At first, it hit like a freight train and all emotions went crazy. I started doubting myself, my dreams, my hopes and almost losing FAITH. In 10 minutes after reading the devastating news, I was ready to give up and lose hope in what I know GOD has ordained for us. It's amazing how the enemy can hit you with fear, disbelief and allow you to lose trust and faith in GOD. But, I reclaimed my thoughts and didn't let the NEGATIVE nuisance interfere with my feelings or emotions. I had to put him in his place and let him know, that he wasn't going to still my JOY. Although, we hit a bump on the road, God is still in control and we will continue trusting in him knowing that it is WELL. The enemy forms his weapons at maximum strength from all corners, we as CHRISTIANS, have to be ready and put on the whole ARMOR of God to withstand anything he throws at us.

The easiest thing to do was to give up and take the road most travelled. But, I'm a child of the most high and I know that God has brought me too far, to leave me. So, I say to you our journey is still continuing and we will proceed on the road less travelled. All tests have been completed and results are back. I have to reschedule my hysteroscopy and will be forwarding all results to Rotunda next week. Our primary donor wasn't going to be able to cycle with us due to a concurrent cycle with another couple. Prayerfully, she will be free now to cycle with us in Dec/Jan timeframe. I would like to leave you with an inspiring message from my Spiritual Mother. BE ADVISED I RECEIVED THIS THE SAME NIGHT I WAS INFORMED OF THE NEW TRAVEL RULES. ALL I CAN SAY IS, "AMAZING"...

DECIDE TO BE POSITIVE

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. -Philippians 4:8 KJV

Negative people don't enjoy life. Viewing each day with positive expectations is one of the key principles to godly happiness.

We act on what we believe, so positive thoughts cause positive actions. If we want a positive life, begin thinking positive thoughts. It is easy to do if you read the Word and meditate on all that GOD wants to do for you and through you. Get alone today, and think about tall the good, positive things GOD has done for you in the past and all HE has planned for you in the future. I challenge you to: Stop having those "pity parties" in that cold lifeless pit thinking that no one cares for you. Well do you really care about your self? Be encouraged and know that: Whatever you need, GOD got it and HE is waiting to give it to you..

LET US PRAY: Merciful FATHER, thank you for loving me in spite of myself. Walk with me LORD, talk with me LORD, while I am on this Christian journey. Please hold my hand and walk with me in the name of JESUS. Amen.

Prayers and hugs.

MOM & POPS USA

Still have JOY...

Unfortunately, we will have to postpone our cycle from April to July or August. It's exciting hearing the news from all of you expecting.

Somehow it seems everywhere I turn, someone is pregnant. Which is a blessing but at times, it hurts facing the reality that I'm NOT. Our story is a little different, as we only require an egg donor. I'm able to carry our child but I'm currenlty going through menopause and have been for the last 5 years. Believe it or not, I'm only 33 years young. I had an appointment last week with my new OB/GYN and he looked over my test results and was shocked by my extremeky high FSH results. Although, I've been told many times that I could be going through menopause, I thought that each of the 7-10 doctors were wrong. I've since excepted that this is what's happening but God has given me options. He has allowed me to carry 2 beautiful children to birth and still affords me the opportunity for more. And with that we will continue on our journey soon. My OB/GYN was so helpful and concerned. He stated all I needed to do was bring him a copy of my tests and procedures needed from our clinic and he will ensure they are completed ASAP.

We are utilizing Dr. Allahbadia and the staff of Rotunda Clinic in Mumbai. We are looking forward to The Mike's pick-up babies trip to see how everything goes. Well, you are all in our prayers and please don't give up...

By His Grace,
S.